Turning the page to 2013

Well, tomorrow is a big day for me. It will mark my first interview in over 23 years! Wow. that is kind of mind boggling. Funny thing is, I don't know if I want the job or not. I am so torn right now it is crazy. I don't know if I want to homeschool or not, sub or not, be a secretary or not. Too many decisions right now. Today was a fairly productive day, though not near as much as it could have been. I began really tearing up the basement and discovered lots of mold. That is scary for me. All kinds of thoughts and fears creep in when I think of it for too long.... from silly, stupid fears that are worthless to consider or fear about (like spiders and bugs) to major health issues from black mold. The mind really can take control sometimes. I haven't heard from Sam in so long that we decided he has written us off. He is enjoying SKyview so much that he rarely calls or talks.... or come home. Erin and Jacob A. are trying to start things over again. I am happy about that. I think they are good for each other.... but ultimately, it doesn't matter what I think. It only matters what God's plan is for both of them. Tomorrow opens up the common app for colleges. I can't convince Jacob that he needs to begin applying. I wish that I could, but he and I don't see eye to eye often. Emily is feeling better today. I am glad for that. I think Caleb is doing well, though I don't talk to him that often. I need to change that. Life is good. I can hardly believe that Mark and I are about to celebrate 23 years of marriage! Crazy! I am truly blessed.